This song makes me so fucking sad. Like, I see all black and there’s nothing but depression and longing and fighting to life. Still I love this beautiful song so much dammit. One morning I just woke up with this looping in my head and I just knew it was going to be a hard day <3
When I close my eyes, I picture myself as a wolf. I listen to music and imagine myself running to the beat of the drums. I think about walks in the woods…
I relate so hard to therian’s problems and feelings. I thought it was just because I was trans, but I have gone trough the process, feel good about my gender and existence in human society but there’s this weird feeling still.
I relate to animals so strong, I do not feel human. Huh.
And it’s not like I relate to them better because “They’re so honest and it’s easier to tell your troubles to a dog/cat/rat and they accept you completely” because I fucking detest that sentiment. Many animals fucking hate people, okay? And just because a critter doesn’t talk it doesn’t mean it’s just agreeing with you or.. uh I dunno. I just really hate that train of thought because you actually have to earn dogs/cats/rats/llamas etc.. trust in just the same way you do with humans.
What I’m trying to get at is; I do not relate to animals because of cultural reason or because they are easier to be around than people (they are not) it’s because I just do not feel human.
I have not really put much thought into this, I wanted to be a werewolf as a kid SO bad, I just wanted to be able to live in the forests of Finland no matter what time of the year it was, just feel free. The feeling never went away. I thought it was because I didn’t belong, I was alone a lot as a child but now that I have LOTS of good friends and I belong to so many groups.. the feeling is still there.
Even though I wanted to be a werewolf as a child I know for sure my theritype is not any kind of a canine, especially not a wolf. Werewolf was just the only creature that I thought could even remotely exist that would give me the power to get away and live in the nature.
Still, I have thought about this so little that I’m not quite sure what it could be. I feel great connection to hares and raccoon dogs but those are so vastly different animals that it proves I have very mixed feelings of what it could be.
But yeah, I’ll really be thinking about this. I wonder if there’s a way to connect to your type somehow? I like all sorts of psychonaut things (Three Kings, Doors to the mind, lucid dreams..) so maybe I’ll try some of those..?
The pied flycatchers and great tits, both found across much of Europe, have evolved to the point where their existence is quite similar. They eat a lot of the same kinds of food, get killed by the same predators, and even choose the same sites for their nests. This similarity leads to a fair amount of competition, sometimes quite violent. If a bird from one species flies into a crevice to check out a potential nest spot, only to find the other species there, the two birds will fight–sometimes to the death.
The two species aren’t identical, though, and there a couple differences that are particularly intriguing.The great tits build their nests earlier in the year, and the pied flycatchers have a habit of paying visits to great tit nests before building their own.
In recent years, the Finnish researchers have found a likely reason for these visits. The pied flycatchers are gathering intel. They inspect the nests of great tits to help them decide where they will make their own nests. One piece of information they’re interested in is the number of eggs are in a great tit’s nest. If a nest is loaded with eggs, it’s probably a good place for a pied flycatcher to make its own nearby.
The great tit suffers for letting the pied flycatcher get this information. Now a rival bird sets up house on the same territory and starts to compete for the same food. The researchers have found that great tits that attract these neighbors end up with fewer nestlings as a result. The pied flycatchers, on the other hand, have more success in reproducing because they build their nests on good real estate. One species benefits, and one suffers. But the benefit doesn’t come from cockroach innards or cell proteins. The pied flycatcher is stealing information.